Posted by Robbie | Posted in | Posted on Monday, September 26, 2011

i sat on the park bench and looked at the clear blue sky and the fading lines of the mountains .. he came and sat nxt to me on the bench silently .. v didnt talk .. v jus sat thr for a long time staring at the far away mountain peaks .. n far away it was .. as far away as the time v first met - me n him .. it wasnt as dreamy as these moutains though .. it was so vry ordinary, u wudnt even give it a second thought had it not happened to u .. it happened to me, so i did give it a thought .. n some mre ..

i tried to drive as fast as possible in the impossible traffic .. i had overslept and was terribly late to work .. n that being the first day in the new proj .. n that too as a team lead !! i couldnt help feeling a li'l gud inside at the thought of the 'team lead' part .. thr will be ppl reporting to me .. glowing inside, i swerved into the office building and did not realize until the security guard gave a piece of the choicest words he knew, that i had entered thro the gates marked 'Exit' .. apologising n mumbling an xcuse that it was my first day in that building, i made a vain attempt at a smile despite his glaring eyes ..

i swiped my ID and pushed the door .. the door didnt budge .. i tried again .. no change .. the door jus glared at me with challenging eyes .. i looked all over the place for some friendly face .. none .. finally had to go over to the reception and explain my predicament and had to sign a dozen papers before the helpful receptionist gave me a temporary card that worked the doors with a charm .. i ran into the lift n crashed into the only guy who was in thr .. n i wud never forget the look he gave that day till my last breath .. i apologised a million times but his look still said that he knew i crashed into him caz he was handsome .. he actually was !! .. but that was not y i crashed into him .. t'was honest clumsiness and the hurry to get into the lift before itz doors closed shut .. ahh wel .. let him think wat he wants .. i wudnt even probably meet him ever again and he nywayz wudnt recognize even of v did .. so then , that safely put behind, i slowly realized i hadnt pressed the button for my floor .. he was looking at me .. and i felt really embarassed .. he got off at the third floor and i got off too .. i ducked into my rather huge handbag and made a big show of searching for s'thing and came up with my mobile that was almost dying with no charge .. the guy was looking at me still .. so i jus cald mom and started talkin random stuff .. i have to give it to her, my mom's a real sport .. shez the best .. once i made sure the guy had left the vicinity, i decided lift wasnt lucky for me that day n took the stairs ..

after some frantic searching i finally found the PM's room and t'was empty .. i sat on a chair in thr n waited for a gud half hr bfr he made his appearance, looking all fresh n rested .. i caught a glimpse of myself in the glass door n cursed under my breath .. i must ve atleast washed my sweaty face in the time i sat waiting for him .. nywayz, he smiles and introduces himself n says he's pleased to meet me .. n then he directs me to the HR who then directs me to my work station .. a nice cozy workstation that is closed in three sides and a tiny entrance on one side .. it felt vry nice even though it looked like a rat hole, for the only reason that i didnt ve to share it with anyone , unlike the other workstations wre there were four in each .. nywayz, t'was a challenge for jus me to fit into that small gap of a workstation , so letz not even think bot sharing it .. another awesome thing bot it was, i had to share my landline phone only with one other person who sat on the other side of the partition .. or so i thought .. i became more the wiser in a few days whn i realized that the lady that i shared the phone with was a HR and used the phone frm 9 AM to 6.15 PM which is when she calls it a day ..

nywayz, the next shocking piece of news for the day came jus a few minutes after i settled into my new place .. and that was in the form of the handsome face that i had crashed into jus a few mintues back .. the guy sits rite next to me .. n i ve to get used to the naked look of contempt as i was gonna work in that proj for atleast the next ten months .. n i already knew i didnt like him .. handsome or nt .. n he made it clear jus with that look of his, that the feeling was perfectly reciprocated .. gud .. gr8 start .. i was already loving it .. jus count on my luck .. it has never failed me .. i HATED it and was home sick for my old team and workstation ..

i woke up with a heavy and pained heart and made it to the kitchen lookin as miserable as i felt .. my roomie, being the soft and sweet thing that she was, made some coffee for me and said everything 'll b fine .. bless her .. i downed the coffee and rushed to my room .. i was goin to be late again .. as usual .. in all this hurry, i burned one of my fav dupattas while ironing .. that was the last straw .. i jus got into some informal clothing and drove like a maniac to office .. n then my boss tells me i need to go for a meeting asap .. i rush to the meeting room and stop rite at the entrance .. everyone in the meeting room had white hair, if at all .. n then the guy who was heading the meeting throws me that impatient look and i go in meekly n take an empty seat .. n much to my embarassment, he looks at me and says, "Please ask some seniors in your team to join the meeting too .. itz a vry important meeting and i was informed that the team lead was goin to join from your team" .. i inform him 'm the team lead .. u can imagine the rest ..

later that day, i overheard him telling my boss he hadnt expected a kid to be the team lead .. especailly one that looks like a scarecrow in jeans and t-shirt on a weekday .. n i was vry much gratified when my PM told him that i had cleared all the interviews with top scores and that i came with strong recommendations from my previous PMs and HR .. with a smug look i turn to go to my place whn i notice The Guy glaring at me accusingly for evesdropping .. i make a vain attempt at acting like i didnt know why he was glaring and beat a hasty retreat to my rat hole safely without crashing into him ..

n thats how it all started and thats how life went on for a few weeks .. sigh .. s'times life loses all the spice n sugar when it is filled with too much of both .. huh ,nywayz, y'knw wat i mean ..

n then he came !!!!!! a new addition to my team .. hw could s'one be so handsome and yet so unaffected by it .. and he was goin to report to me !!! haaaa !! finally something nice happening !! or so i thought !! yet again !! thr r s'things i never seem to learn no matter how many times i get beaten up !! so i welcome this guy with open arms n heart (okie okie .. i'll stop) .. wel, so i welcome him happily .. n whn i learn v r same year passout, needless to say, i was doin a dappan kuthu in my heart .. only until i learnt he n The Guy were close frenz !!!

i turned n looked at the still handsome face in the fading light .. my heart still flutters jus looking at him .. after all these years .. curse this heart that jus cannot change .. he musta felt my stare , he turned to me n smiled that smile of his .. i jus stared at him .. he smiled .. smiles .. guess will alwayz smile .. no matter wat .. my heart was heavy .. it couldnt smile like him .. so i jus stare .. i didnt ve a handsome (it shud b cute , rite?!! ah wel .. watever) smile like him .. mine's so ladden with conflicting emotions .. itz not easy n warm like his .. y cant i smile like that? ve i ever smiled like that? even once? i dunno .. not like it matters to u .. it does to me though .. all the small things too matter to me now .. guess thats wat age does to u ..

t'was late .. i sat working , not realizing that the floor was almost empty .. i hadnt moved from my seat from morning .. some issues got escalated and i had a bad meeting with my manager early in the morning .. n so i had to turn in a lot of work n within a short time too .. i was so engrossed in my work that i didnt realize when he came and stood next to me .. dunno how long he waited .. i was jolted to the real world by his frantic coughing .. his look clearly said 'wre u really concentrating in work or wre u sleeping with ur eyes glued to the monitor' .. i was too tired to argue n jus stared back with a question mark all over my face .. not sure wat triggered it, maybe he saw the weariness n felt sorry for me .. he suddenly gave this amazing smile that lit up my tiny li'l rat hole .. my heart started hammering so loudly n i felt like it echoed in the empty office floor .. i almost got knocked down from my chair when he asked me to the cafe for maggie noodles .. i wasnt so sure if i wanted to go with him when the handsome teamie came up behind n told me i need to ve atleast one meal a day .. the look in the Guy's face started showing irritation n i suddenly lost my temper .. the day had been horrible as it is and i didnt want to put up with high n mighty ppl .. the smile of a moment ago forgotten, i jus refused the offer n turned my back to 'em n started typing some junk code frantically .. they left ..

after about 30 minutes i felt my eyes closing n decided to grab a coffee from the pantry .. washed my face, had a coffee n brought along one mre to my seat .. didnt notice the brown parcel initially but suddenly it showed itself with all itz glory n the smile that was forgotten came back with all itz sunlight .. i opened the brown cover to find a sandwich .. i shouted a random 'Thanks' directed at the nxt cabin .. didnt get a response but that didnt change the mood .. a song on the lips , a smile on the face ..

i dropped my walking stick with a clatter .. but bfr i could rise, he got up .. he held both, the walkin stick and my hand and v just sat thr, njoying the slight cool breeze and the view .. n it was getting dark slowly .. n silvery, evn more slowly, with the generous moon splashing itz light all over .. i guess i finally felt peace .. i had finally come to terms with life ..

we didnt speak to each other much .. he alwayz looked at me with that contemptous look .. and i alwayz looked at him with enemity .. but as it happened, caz of the cute guy in my team, v ended up having food or coffee together every once in a while .. he seemed to be a worser workaholic than me n so i found him almost all the time at his seat .. n then he went on vacation to his home town .. n thats whn i realized i actually missed him ..


got pulled back to the reality by a thump on the head by a football .. i looked at it irritably n glared at the figure that had kicked the ball .. a face with an apologetic smile plastered on it stared back at me .. i wud ve liked to be in the old lady's shoes for some more time n weaved some more stories .. now that , thats over, i glared at the guy who spoilt it all ..


okie so lemme introduce myself .. time i did nywayz :) .. i am A .. i had come to the park today to get some fresh air and finish a novel .. i didnt get to do that though .. my mind started wandering, making itz own story when i saw the old couple .. n thats the story above .. i dunno the real story of their lives .. but i do ve a silly mind that can be satisfied with itz own version of everything and everyone .. n i felt satisfied .. they looked so happy and content .. n s'how that was all that mattered at that moment .. i got up with a light heart n a skip in my step .. they looked up whn i got off my bench .. i greeted 'em n tore myself away from the happy scene bfr me n headed towards my apt .. i had to get back to my story now .. the real one this time .. after all, at the end of our days, we all have our tales .. n i ve to make my mine ... :)